What will people think when they hear that I'm a Jesus freak?

I find it interesting, and highly self-serving and hypocritical, that many Christians look to the Bible as their source of comfort, peace, and salvation, and use this very same book to justify the destruction of others. It seems as if they say: "It is my comfort and peace, but not yours. For you, you evildoers, will suffer at our hands for what you have done. For me, I have been forgiven freely by Christ. But I cannot extend that forgiveness to you."
Jesus tells us what happens to a person with that mindset. In his parable of the unmerciful servant, a master forgives his servant of his debts, but that servant goes out and does not forgive his brother. When the master hears, he "turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed." Then, Jesus says, "This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart." (Matthew 18:34-53) Jesus also said, "Freely you have received, freely give." (Matthew 10:8) Who are we to begrudge our neighbor or our enemy what was so freely given to us - what we could have never deserved?
Jesus was very clear about the fact that he had come to change everything - by his fulfillment of the Law, with love. Love is the fulfillment of the law. (Romans 13:10)

So, love.

The greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:13)

So, love.

Let no debt remain outstanding, except the one to continue to love each other. (Romans 13:8)

So, love.

It's also interesting that people look to the Old Testament to justify a war, but overlook the New Testament, the change that commands our lives today. A commentary in my Bible reads:

"One fact about 'holy war' is very clear. We cannot argue from a war specifically commanded
by God in Joshua to any national situation today. In the Old Testament, God was dealing primarily with one particular nation, the Israelites, for a stated purpose. When the Messiah finally emerged out of that nation, everything changed.
Jesus' followers all lived in the same territory captured by Joshua, the 'promised land.' But
four times, in his very last words, Jesus commanded his disciples to go out, away from Jerusalem, into all the world. Go, he told them, not as conquering armies but rather as bearer of the Good News that applies to all people, all races, all nations.
Anyone who looks to the book of Joshua for rationalization of a "holy war" must also look ahead to Jesus. Although on a holy crusade, he chose against violent means. In fact, he chose suffering and death. Nothing in the New Testament gives consolation to a religious warrior."

Instead, several times the New Testament tells us that we are not to take an eye for an eye or to repay evil with evil or insult with insult. What do we replace this urge with then? What the New Testament tells us countless times to do in any instance - love and forgive, and have mercy.

We are to be the salt of the earth, the light of the world, a set apart people, a sociopolitical alternative, imitators of God. Then why do so many of us look like the world? If our lives don't make people wonder where in the world we came from, who are we, what are we doing, why are we doing that - then we are not being the Jesus freaks we are called to be.